l-tm:

Even if you told someone, no one would have believed you. On the contrary, people would think that you’re crazy. Only you in this world. You felt like you were a different being. You got used to Thanatos, but you started to feel uncomfortable around people. It sounds weird, but you started to feel that Thanatos was the only one you could rely on. If you knew it better, you wouldn’t mind dying. No, you want to die. It would be better than being alone.