l-tm:

Even if you told someone, no one would have believed you. On the contrary, people would think that you’re crazy. Only you in this world. You felt like you were a different being. You got used to Thanatos, but you started to feel uncomfortable around people. It sounds weird, but you started to feel that Thanatos was the only one you could rely on. If you knew it better, you wouldn’t mind dying. No, you want to die. It would be better than being alone.

Things I have done today:

  1. Move my car so it wouldn’t get a street-sweeping ticket
  2. Say “hi” to a neighbor who happened to be walking back from the coffee shop as I was staggering my still-sleepy way back to the house after moving aforementioned car
  3. Watch dramas
  4. Contemplate the empty vastness that is the fridge and realize the things I’d left behind before my trip are expired and need to be thrown out
  5. Pull out a trash bag to empty fridge
  6. Eat ice cream
  7. Watch more dramas
  8. Realize I got distracted from cleaning out fridge
  9. Watch 1N2D
  10. Fridge still not clean yet still mostly empty
  11. Remember to set alarm to move car in case I forget tonight so I don’t get a street-sweeping ticket tomorrow
  12. Make elaborate plans to be productive tomorrow
  13. Watch more dramas